Honestly, it’s getting old. I’ve been through this before… many times. I must be stubborn… or dense… or just dumb… I keep making the same mistake over and over… and every time, it feels new.
I keep thinking that I’m in control of my own life. I keep thinking I know what’s best for me. And when things don’t go my way, I get disappointed, hurt, and sad. And I ask God “why God?” I ask God “what is your purpose in this?” I ask God “what is your plan exactly?” I need to Let.It.Go. I need to trust that God indeed knows what’s best for my life… and that He’s in control. I need to Let.It.Go.
I have the need to correct everyone’s misunderstandings, misinformation, or misjudgment. At least, that’s what I think they are. I’d like to think it’s because I want people to be well-informed and be fair. But in actuality, I just feel the need to make them understand things from my point of view. I need to Let.It.Go. I need to accept the fact that I can’t change people. I’m not responsible for people’s decisions and opinions. I need to Let.It.Go.
I have the tendency to want to fix everything. I’m a problem-solver by nature… and I get frustrated when I see people spinning the same web over and over again. I get frustrated when I feel like I have the answer, and yet they don’t seem to get it. I need to Let.It.Go. I can’t fix everything for everyone. I can’t fix people’s attitudes. I can’t fix their opinions. I really don’t have all the right answers. I need to Let.It.Go.
I believe life has many ups and downs. I believe how you feel about life is dependent on your attitude. I believe every stage of life feels difficult when you’re in it. I believe it’s necessary to have a good sense of humor about life because otherwise, you’ll want to cry all day. I believe God doesn’t give us beyond what we can handle. I probably won’t last a day in your shoes just as you may not last a day in mine. Trust me, my life is no picnic either. I believe every tough life stages will eventually pass, and we can overcome. Lately, I’ve heard so many “woe is me” stories and attitudes. I just want to shake them and tell them to put life into perspective. If you have a place to lay your head at night and food to eat, you’re blessed. I want to tell them to just get over it, own your own life, and live it! But I need to Let.It.Go. I can encourage people, but I can’t change people–only God can do that. I can listen to people, but I can’t shake them out of their self-misery forcefully. I am responsible to people, but I can’t be responsible for people. I need to Let.It.Go. By the way, there’s a reason why I didn’t go into counseling (when many people said I should)… I would have been a horrible counselor–God wired me for something else and thankfully the Holy Spirit guided me to listen to Him rather than people.
I keep holding onto emotions that aren’t healthy for me. I need to surrender every aspect of my life to God.